Themes and variations on “if a tree falls in the woods, does it make a sound?”

In four acts

Atto Primo

When a tree falls in the woods, does it make a sound?
if there’s no ear to take it in, and not a soul around.
Is there any ruckus when the tallest branches hit.
Frankly, dear, I have to say, I just don’t give a shit.

Instead there is another way my wondering mind is leaning.
What I really want to know is does it have a meaning?
I’m sure it does to some poor owl whose home the tree destroys
But to someone half a mile away, it’s simply background noise.

Now, Trees are not my main concern, as much as I love birds,
But here’s what keeps me up, some nights: my desperate, needy words.
my thoughts disgorged on every page, and I don’t have much choice.
It seems from deep inside of me they want to have a voice.

And since this voice is my wracked soul, they cry out to be heard.
And seek a willing audience to love them word for word.
Sometimes the way they nag me, till I’m sleepless, is a curse.
They want to tell their story in some tortured metered verse.

And every bit of simile or metaphor or rhyme
Demand to have that fret upon the stage in their own time.
Some day, they will stop asking to assure them they are good.
And then, they’ll be content to fall in silence in the wood

Atto Secondo

If a tree falls in the woods, and no one’s there to hear it, does it make a sound?
Yes. Duh.

Atto Terzo

If a tree falls in the woods, and we are not really hearing it, does it make a sound?
It sounds like the tear, falling from my cheek, that you didn’t see.
It sounds like the cat purring in that extra 2 inches between us in the bed, that we don’t discuss.
It is the sound of that repeated slam of the door, that we refuse to acknowledge.
It is that sigh of “here we go again.”

It makes the sound of that constant debate between us as we use our theories and grand abstractions to pretend we are addressing the fundamental sound of this splinter between us, but ultimately, we are only arguing the semantics of what it means to listen.

Atto Quarto

If a tree falls in the woods does it make a sound?
The towering oak once proud and tall, with auburn mantle crowned.
And in its budding prime, it broadly spread its springtime pollen,
How sad it feels to see the way the mighty tree has fallen.

But does this toppling really make a sound upon this stage?
It does, he says, as he zips up, “it happens to guys your age.”

Fini

Respiratory Therapy

I dreamed I was breathing, but awoke, suddenly, to realize that I was not. My breath was caught on last night’s good bye kiss, which I suddenly realized meant more than just “see you later.” It made my air clench in my throat, and I was getting faint.

I was able to cough it clear, as far as my lips, where i could taste your 11 dollar a case beer, and that half cigarette, you swore you’d quit. I finally spit it out and was clear for a moment.

I was finally able to inhale deeply and feel the cold air of my bedroom move into my chest, and show me how it will feel without you. I could smell the soap that you bought at the street fair, this summer, and haven’t used in months, I breathed deeply and it became warmer, inside, like you had returned.

This breath is practiced. it is habitual and happens without my realization. It comes from so deep inside, that it is part of me, but it is not mine. Someday, I will breathe normally, again. You will not be the oxygen, and will not gasp in your absence. I will not exhale my desire, and be confounded by the inability to inhale your response.

Some day, this breath will be my own.

Essence

I miss your charm, your effervescence,
Your easy smile’s luminescence
I love that our love’s coalescence,
Is such a blessing at its essence.
But even your bright incandescence
leaves just a fading phosphorescence

So, in my anxious convalescence,
From a bout of adolescence,
I feared my thoughtless acquiescence
Had caused our union’s obsolescence.

But now that Im back in your presence,
I cheer the worry’s evanescence.
I feel your caring heart’s incessence.
It sings of your love’s omnipresence.

Sword and Dove

what he said when he broke up with me during sex because I was too tender.

I want to fuck and not make love.
Give me your sword and not the dove.
I need to be objectified,
And leave romantic strings untied.

We had a deal, since this began.
You knew the way this river ran.
You can’t divert its course alone,
You’re just a leaf and not a stone

I know I said “I love you,” first,
But you’re your best when I’m my worst.
So get your heart out of this game,
Cause I’ve already done the same.

My heart has crossed the Rubicon.
It’s born to roam, and now it’s gone.
We’re staying at the river, here,
And going at it, spear to spear.

Unsheathe your steel and I’ll draw mine
We’ll lunge and parry, six and nine.
Give me your sword and not the dove,
Cause fuckers fuck and suckers love.

Traces

My finger traced your apology in the dusty residue of your absence. Motes and fragments of your habits cling to the apartment and the furniture. A scuff from your impossibly narrow dress boots on the kitchen tile. The dried chalk of your mail-order, not tested on animals toothpaste clings to the bathroom faucet. A drink ring on the coffee table, from your family recipe Manhattan, where the vermouth bottle sits just adjacent to the Canadian blended for 60 seconds, not more, with 2 cubes, gently cracked. The ring is just dried condensation on the finish, not even a stain. Easy to wipe up. All temporary, like you.

We became a certainty, an inevitability, as fast as we chose the restaurant for our first date. Chinese or Italian? My place or yours? Marriage or sinful cohabitation? I cleared that drawer for your underwear. Shall we kiss? I had lunch with your mom. Shall we dance? Whose cologne is that? In our bed? Where were you last night? Your drawer is empty. Chinese or Italian? Delivery for one.

I know you are sorry how it all happened. How you didn’t mean to get distracted. How he was only there to spice things up. How maybe we moved too fast, in the first place. I know all of this. And I know that when I clean the house, tomorrow, you’ll be gone, completely, without a trace. But tonight, at least, my coffee table wears your ring, right next to my crab Rangoon and my extra duck sauce, and my Manhattan.

Princess T

T-time passed and then the crash
Her only lovers paid her cash
She wore a tattered wedding gown,
The dust of snow, her glistening crown.

She chose, this time, to change her life.
To leave the drugs, the johns, the knife.
Better than her pimp could give,
Like royalty, she dreamed to live.

She walked the caverns ‘neath the town,
And wore her best inverted frown.
She begged for change, and got enough
To cross the gate with all her stuff.

She practiced for her grandest dance,
And crossed the platform in a trance.
The carriage raced to meet the bride,
and that is how the princess died.